There's this mobile game called Rainy Attic, and when things get too much lay in a dark room and let the music of the game play. It has beautiful music. Daydream of being with other angels, and where everything is related to the kiptype. No sense of humans anywhere. After being in a daydream state for minimum one hour, when surface again am usually much more prepared to take on the day's challenges.
Dressing like kintype as well. Wanted to get some angel wings to wear, but the company currently doesn't ship to self's country. For now just wear white, and/or light clothes and only eat foods/drink liquids which are light in colour, not crumbly, and light in weight. Such as honey and golden syrup on white toast, white chocolate, water and white hot chocolate.
I felt really crap a few days ago and it helped me to sit under my desk and chew a bracelet that is designed as a human chew toy but is discreet. Burrowing under bed covers can also help lots.
For my wolf selves, I like to go hiking. In any weather, really, if my joints will let me. One of my wolves comes from a subarctic environment and one of them comes from very close to the equator, so one or the other is pleased with just about any weather. It's even better when I can take my cat with me. One of my cats is leash trained and she likes going for walks and going hiking. It takes eight million years to do a short trail with her, because she likes to sniff everything and climb trees, but she's also very good at reminding me to just be in the moment. Plus it's nice to have a packmate for company, even if she's a little weirdly shaped. (While my human self considers my cats my kids, my wolf selves look at them more like packmates. Small, very weird packmates.) I also have a book series I absolutely love, called The Firekeeper Saga, by Jane Lindskold. It follows Firekeeper and her brother, Blind Seer. Firekeeper is a young woman raised by a pack of Royal Wolves. (Royal animals in this series are larger than their Cousin kind and have language, lore, and culture. They are still animals, but they're highly intelligent. Blind Seer is smarter than many humans I know.) Blind Seer is her brother from her pack. The books follow them as they travel to the two-legs kingdom where Firekeeper was born and she learns to be human - and how to balance her two-legs self with her wolf self. Because she is a wolf, a thing she's very adamant about, even if her body is that of a two-legs. So those are a great comfort to me as I sometimes wonder right alongside Firekeeper "why wasn't I born truly a wolf?"
For my gryphon self, I like to make salmon. I subsisted primarily on fish in that lifetime. In fact, fishing was so important to our flight's survival that most things in our culture revolved around the fishing and the ocean. Really the ocean, even more than fishing. The ocean controlled the weather and our food supply. We were reliant upon it for our survival. So I like making salmon, as that's super easy and very healthy. I also like seared tuna steaks, which are basically only cooked on the outside. They're in the pan for less than 30 seconds total. Those are even better than salmon for my gryphon self, but harder to do right. I also like to go to the beach. I live near one of the Great Lakes and we do have beaches. They even do a surf forecast as part of local weather reports here in the summers. It's not the ocean, but it's large enough, and with a nice sandy beach, to be a good substitute. I like to go even in the winter, although obviously I stay away from the water in the winter. But my home as a gryphon wasn't somewhere you would have wanted to take a beach vacation. It was often dark and cloudy and cold. I didn't look like most gryphons portrayed in art here. I was adapted for a cold environment. My feathers were water resistant and my fur was super thick. Both things served to keep water away from my skin and provide me with insulation so I didn't die from the cold. I also like listening to rain and thunderstorms for my gryphon self. They're familiar, and if I can just be curled up in my den while I listen to them, safe and dry, they're quite comforting.
For my kitsune self, I haven't found much yet that I specifically think of as a thing I do for that specific self. I am, though, learning Japanese. And I have quite a few books of Japanese lore and pieces of Japanese art around my apartment. Those are all from before that realization, but even so. And I'm learning to play sanshin, which is a small-bodied, long-necked, three-stringed lute. Sanshin is an Okinawan traditional instrument, not Japanese, and I'm learning to play traditional Okinawan music on it, not Japanese music. However, it has a similar sound to the shamisen, which makes sense, given it's an ancestor of the shamisen. I do also want to learn shamisen and hopefully I'll be able to transfer my knowledge of sanshin directly to shamisen. I am also, once I find space to set it up (it's quite large), learn to play my guzheng, which is a very large zither. That also isn't a Japanese instrument. Guzheng comes from mainland China. However, the guzheng is a close relative of the koto, which is a traditional Japanese instrument. I also want to learn to play koto, but that requires access to a koto, and I don't have one. I did, however, find this guzheng in a secondhand shop for very cheap. So I decided why not start there. Again, both instruments predate my realization of my kintype, but they're definitely things my kitsune self likes the idea of. Listening to traditional Japanese music is very calming during kitsune m-shifts.
And the last thing I'm planning to do (partially) for my kitsune self is create a specific alter to Inari somewhere in my apartment. I haven't figured out where yet. But I've always been drawn to Inari and she's been one of the goddesses in my personal pantheon for a long time now. However, now that I've realized I'm a kitsune, I understand why I feel so strongly drawn to her. She's the Shinto goddess of rice, tea, and foxes, among other things. Kitsune are her messengers. I've been thinking the last few days about why it took me so much longer to awaken to my kitsune self than my wolves and gryphon, which were 15 and 12 years ago, respectively. Things have been very difficult lately. I've felt pretty hopeless. And this may just be me being superstitious, but I think maybe this awakening was a gift of sorts. I did spend most of that life - several hundred years - serving Inari and guarding one of her shrines. And whether this awakening was a gift or not, I'm grateful for it. So it seems only right. Especially since I'm now in a place where I can create a permanent shrine. I think that will be a big help as well as a comfort.
Rowan Wolf Therian | Gryphonkin | Kitsunekin They/Them | Xe/Xir
I wear pom poms on my head to help with phantom ears for my cat kin I listen to music for my dollkin and well I'm scared to talk about my vampire habits cuz of little eyes
Post by thelaughingred on Jun 24, 2022 16:04:25 GMT
For both my demon kin and my red panda kin, I would drink tea and meditate. Same with exercise, specifically martial arts and workouts that pushes you sort of.